It Feels So Good To Be Thankful

Been out of the blogosphere for more than a month. The longest I've not visited my blog. Gee, I feel like it feels being neglected. I'm sorry, teeny-tiny blog. I missed you though.


Ewan (I dunno)... since my camera bailed out on me, it feels like I have nothing much to say anymore. Or is it just me? Anyhow, let me give you an update (like some sort of) since my last post. Ü


I went to the massage that I was raving about (see previous post). And I must say that I wasn't really that impressed. =/ I don't know... I mean I was right on that massage bed for about 6 hours but there was really nothing to rave about. Oh well, it's just me. I mean don't get me wrong, he worked in a way that was "pulido" (in detail). Maybe I am just used to the massage Jalila (from The Spa) provides me.


At least now, I'll just come back for The Spa's massage, ginger tea, and contrast therapy bath.


Speaking of Contrast Therapy Bath --- did you know that it could help you lose weight?

What is Contrast Therapy Bath anyway? It is AKA Hot/Cold Immersion Therapy. It is a form of treatment where a limb or the entire body is immersed in tolerable hot water, or sauna, or steam, followed by the immediate immersion of the limb or body in a very cold water.

Anyway... Enough of those. Let me tell you the best things that happened to me for the past few weeks.

One, I went to Bohol again. This time I was able to enjoy the time I had there. The last time I was there I only stayed overnight.

Two, I had made new and good friends when I went to Bohol. Little did I know that I would have a new barkada out of them. I was thinking na mabo-bore ako or maa-out of place. But there was no waking moment that it happened. Everytime we were together, lagi kaming nagtatawanan, nagkukulitan, nag-aasaran, nag-aalipustahan, at shempre hindi din nawala yung inuman. Haha. Sabaw ako madalas nung nasa Bohol kami. And yes, now I promised myself I won't get drunk in front of them.

Thank you Au, Gec, Gel, and Joey. You're a blessing to me. Samin ni Y.

Three, I was able to bring Y in the office again. Ü grabe. Namimiss ko na ang anak ko na yun. I'm praying right now na sana magkaron na kami ng katulong. Nung Feb 16, andito sha, ayun, laro sha ng laro. Pero most of the time natulog lang sha kasi napuyat sha the night before. Tapos nung hapon, nagpunta kami ng ATC. Kumain kami ng Tanigue Steak (Php 105.00) sa Mesa Steak Grill (ok naman ang pagkain dun kaya lang shempre mas masarap at hindi nila tinipid ang ingredients nung unang panahon). Pagkatapos namin kumain ni Y, ayun, naglaro na sha ng naglaro sa playground malapit sa Burger King. Tapos, alam nyo ba? Yun yung araw na natuto shang magslide pababa sa pole (yung parang fireman's pole). Ambilis nyang matuto, grabe.
May gifted child talaga ako. Ü
Sana magkasama na kaming muli. Yung mahigit lang sa pag-ii-spend ng weekend kasama ang isa't-isa.
Naiyak nga ako nung pinakuha ko muna si Y sa nanay ko nung Lunes ng gabi (16/02/09). Kasi ayaw talagang umalis ni Y sa bahay. Alam siguro nya na yun ang "home" nya.

Four, thank you kay C. Na open ang bahay nya sa mga pagkakataong kelangan ko ng matutulugan. At masaya akong magkaron ako ng lukaret na kaibigan sa kanya. At kahit minsan, aminado ako sa sarili kong nawi-weirdo-han ako 'pag gumigimik kami dahil bigla umaakyat ang "sosy-meter" nya 'pag nasa labas kami. Hee hee.

Five, salamat kay Ch dahil ni-reprieve nya yung late ko na valid naman. =)

Six, yung prayer ko na matuloy ang summer outing namin sa Punta De Fabian --- nasagot ni Lord (Thank you, sobra, Lord!Ü). Ayun. I think that is my getaway-from-it-all place in the future. Grabe, tungkol jan sa summer outing na yan, ako na ang nagdi-direct. Maraming plano, sobrang konti ng panahon. Sarap. =)

Seven, natutuwa sakin ang mga ka-team mates ko tulungan silang mag organise ng parties. Haha. Party girl nga siguro ko (huwattt?!haha). Sana nga nag-events organiser na lang ako or, ika nga nila Gel and Au, Tourist Guide. Haha. Siguro nga I was born for it. =p

Eight, I felt happy with Gilbert thanking me sa small things na nagawa ko for him. Ü You're welcome, Gilley! Buti nga ngayon at di ka na mahiyain. Hee hee. And thanks din sa ... you know what =p

Nine, I was über-surprised with the flowers B gave me. Kahit di na akma sa atmosphere namin yun. I was happy, elated, and thankful. The flowers have wilted dahil sa sobrang init sa loob ng bahay... pero sana hindi yung kung anuman yung meron kami. Kahapon nga pala we went out to watch Confessions of a Shopaholic. Ok lang yung movie. Parang andaming cuts. Mas mag eenjoy siguro ako sa movie nila John Lloyd at Sarah o kaya sa He's Just Not That Into You.

Ten, the things and people that are usually overlooked... I am most thankful.

Well, those made my weeks and my time worth living. =)

Happy New Year!! Ü

Happy New Year, Everyone!! Ü

If you're going to look at my blog you'll see that I have updated it with some of my goals for 2009, the things that I am thankful for, and the places I'd like to visit as well. Feel free to browse through them as you may get some ideas where to go or what to do in case you'd suddenly feel more adventurous. Ü

You see, I guess for years now, I've been a believer of "The Secret" itself. Years back when was still pregnant with Yosh, I've constantly been praying to God that he will be cute, bouncing, smart, happy, healthy, passionate, great, inspiring, and loving kid (among many other great things too!) to me and the people that's surrounds him. Little did I know that time that I've constantly been asking for the Universe to conspire for my son's being --- that he'll be amazingly, wonderfully made --- just very like how "The Secret" works... That whatever I ask it does happen, that Universe will grant it. On the right side portion of my blog, you'll see there of the places I'd like to visit, the miracles that are happening and have happened in my life, and the goals that I have for and will reach by 2009. They look stunningly unbelievable for some and utterly usual for others. For me, they are the things that I have yet to have, goals I have yet to accomplish. I guess, for years that I've been believing for "small" things, 2009 should be the year that I should believe for the bigger things to . We all should, shouldn't we? Despite some people call there would be recession, thing here is, if we believe it, then it would happen. So, why not we believe that Universe will ever and always be abundant with love, wealth, joy, and laughter and it does do everything to conspire on hearts wishes may it be something good or not-so-good.

In no particular order, just by order of reckoning though, these are just some of the über-many miracles that had happened and is happening in my life:
- Yosh
- Graduating High-School (I was hard-headed then, I was not going to school, I thought I won't graduate Ü)
- College's scholarship
- Hirayamanawari (being on TV ~ Channel 2!)
- Dec 2004/2003 gift from Christmas Party at VCF - Bible (naks! haha)
- Brix
- Working for this multinational oil company
- B-day gift - Mug (from Scoozi - 25/11/08)
- Small wallet (from the Nine West bag I got from Claire)
- Xmas gift - Coin purse from Bing (Thanks, Bing!)
- Xmas gift - "Cars" watch for Yosh from Deej (Thanks, Deej!)

xxx and sooo much more! xxx (well, I'm trying to reckon other stuffs but... I could remember them when I'm already out of the office. Haha._)

These are just some of the nicest things that happened to me. Hope that as 2009 kicks in, you'll be able to find the best of the things that come your way. Remember studies show that the brain, our thoughts, find for "proof" of the things you think most of. So, if you think of health, wealth, and happiness everyday - your brain will find all the supporting "proofs" of those things in all things. They will be magnified and expounded.

In a nutshell, I'm wishing you all a very happy and wonderful and safe new year!! Let me start going home now to see my family. Hi, Yosh! I'll see you soon! Ü *muwah!*


Cheers to you all!!

Heinaku, magparamdam ka muna. (What Are Friends Are For??? - pun intended)

Yes, yes, yes... I know, I know... Baket mali ang grammar ko? Eh baket ba?! Naiintindihan nyo naman di ba???

Teka, may kwekwento ako senyo. Nung isang linggo, bago magpasko. May isa akong kakilala na matagal ko ng hindi nakikita at iyon... Bigla na lang nagparamdam sa text. Eto ang sabi:

Her: Mamay?

Aba. Iisa lang naman ang taong tumatawag sakin ng "Mamay" at sha iyon. Shempre, bilang ako na mabait at hindi kasungitan, eto ang sinagot ko:

Me: Aba. Nagparamdam ka?ü musta?

Sa pagkakagulat-gulat ko, nalaman-laman ko na lang na...:

Her: Eto malapit ng manganak... Sa 24 na siguro.ü sina Yosh, at ang mga kapatid mo? Kamusta?Ü

Nakng! Ayun na pala at manganganak na sha ni hindi man lang sinabi sakin nung una na buntis na pala sha! Sa tono o estilo ng kanyang pagte-text para bagang may hinahanap sha ng tulong sakin. Pero dahil sa may pride ako at kahit papano ay masakit para sakin na iwan nya ako sa ere. Para bang ni hindi man lang nagsabing mawawala sha o ano, hindi ako nag-alok ng tulong. Nagtanong lang ako kung lalaki o babae yung anak nya, ayun naman lalaki daw pero sa government hospital manganganak. Nagtanong ako tungkol sa Philhealth nya at sa dati nyang employer pero yun... Wala shang sagot. Ang sakin wala din naman akong pinansiyal na iaabot sa kanya (naunahan na sha ng lolo, lola, yung isa ko pang lola, anak, kaibigan, nobyo at mga kapatid ko). Naghihintay ako nun na sabihin nya sakin na kelangan nya ng tulong, pero wala naman shang sinabi so... Wala din akong inalok. Ngayon lang ako di nag-alok ng tulong. Para kasing sa kaibuturan ng puso ko, isa na lang syang estranghero. Sana man lang naisip nyang kaibigan din ako, di lang kung may kelangan sha ngunit pati na din kung may nangyayaring mabuti o di maganda sa kanya.

Kaya nga minsan, naiisip kong mas mabuting magkaron ng kaibigang lalaki. Kasi sila hindi malabong kausap, hindi malabong kasama, at madaling pakisamahan. Yung lalaking-lalaki ha, hindi yung maarte. Ikumpara ko sha dun sa isa kong kaibigang tawagin na lang natin sa pangalang Mik. Kami, kung di man kami nag-usap ng matagal na panahon, nung bumalik ako parang wala lang. Mabuti pa din sha sakin. At ako kung magpaparamdam ako sa mga kaibigan kong hindi dahil sa may kelangan lang ako, at gayon din sila (hindi ko nilalahat ah, meron din akong mga kakilala jan kapag pera ang usapan at kelangan nila hindi nawawala sa listahan nila ang pangalan ko - hahaha). Noon, hindi ako madamot. Pero ngayon, napatunayan ko na mas mabuti minsan na mag-Chinese-kuripot ako, di ba sa sobrang kuripot nila yumayaman sila? Masubukan ngang gawin yun. Haha. Ngayon, balik tayo kay Mik. Si Mik nung bumalik ako ay nagregalo pa samin ni Yosh. Sakin green na Puma na bag, kay Yosh - robot. Robot lang. Shempre, sa edad ni Yosh wala pang mag-mamagandang bumili ng PSP dun noh, pero sa edad ni Yosh na to, ay naku, atat na atat na shang magka-PSP kahit sa gantong edad nya. Tapos yung tuwa na naramdaman ko dahil naalala nya ako? Ay! Hindi mapantayan (mejo lang shempre iba pa din ang pa-The Spa ni Beau ~ haha)! Anyhoo, yun nga... Ewan ko ba, hindi ko alam kung conditional ba ang pagkakaibigan dahil sa hormonal change ng isang babae dahil may estrogen sila (haha joke lang), o dahil talagang iba lang ang pagpapalaki sa mga lalaki, o baka dahil may scrotum lang ang mga lalaki kaya sila ganon (haha ~ isa pang joke to ~ hahaha).

Isa lang ang masasabi ko, mas matagal ko pang naging kalilala at kaibigan si Her, pero di hamak na mas ok ang samahan namin ni Mik.

Hayyy...
Mga tunay na kaibigan nga naman, ang hirap hanapin.
Pagiging isang tunay na kaibigan nga naman, mahirap maging.


Tignan nyo na lang si Beau, 26 years bago ako nahanap. Har har.

;-P


(at shempre Beau, 23 years bago kita natagpuan. Naks! wuv u)

Happy Sunday

Usually, halos buong linggo kami lang 2 ni Brix ang magkasama simula ng lumipat si Yosh sa bahay ng nanay ko, ako na lang mag-isa sa apartment at minsan naman ay natutulog ako sa bahay nila Brix. At simula din non, mga 3 beses ko na lang nakakasama ang anak ko at weekends na lang kami palaging naglalaro at nagkakasama.

Nagkaron ng panahon sa buhay namin mag-ina na parang malayo na ang loob ni Yosh sakin at lagi na shang sumasama sa kanyang tita. Sa totoo lang, hindi ako mag-de-deny na hindi ako nasasaktan sa tuwing hahabol sha sa tita nya at hindi sa akin, pero sa isang banda naiisip ko din na wala naman ni isa samin ang may gusto na lumipat ang loob nya sa tiyahin nya at mapalayo kami sa isa't isa. Simula ng unang araw na napansin ko ang pagkakalapit ng loob ni Yosh sa tita nya, at ang madalas na paghabol nito sa kanya, ay!!! -parang kandilang nauupos ang puso ko dahil nakikita ko na nalalayo na ang loob nya sa akin. Shempre, wala akong pwede sisihin kundi ang sarili ko.

Anong ginawa ko?

Masaya kaming mag-ina lumuwas mula Laguna papuntang Festival Mall. Idagdag pa ang presensya ng Babi nya (Beau ko) na sumama samin para magligalig. Talagang tinodo ko nun (21/12/08) ang bonding namin. Nag-arts and crafts kami, yung artwork na nilalagyan ng coloured liquid tapos kapag pinainitan nagiging plastic na may disenyong parang cartoons. Bumili ako ng token worth P100 at naglaro kami ng Air Hockey, nagrides sha, nagbasketball kami, at kung anu-ano pa. Tapos sumakay kami dun sa bumble bee na tumataas baba yung upuan (ay naku, di ko kayang i-describe!). Tuwang-tuwa si Yoshua habang gumagalaw yung bumble bee. Piniktyuran pa nga kami ni Beau habang nakasakay kami dun. Pagkatapos nun sumakay naman sha ng parang small version ng Jungle Log Jam sa Enchanted Kingdom, tawag naman sa Festi - "Elfin Waves". Maliit lang yung ride na yon, sobrang liit. Pero dahil siguro malulula ang isang bata pag nahulog na yung "log" galing sa isang elevated na lugar, natakot si Yosh at nagpumilit umalis sa "log" habang umaandar pa ito. Nataranta nga yung mga attendants kasi kala nila nasaktan si Yosh, mejo naipit yung daliri nya pero hindi naman sobrang naipit kaya hindi naman sha umiyak.

Pagkatapos nun ay kumain kami sa Red Ribbon. Ayun, ako ang inorder ko ay Palabok Petite, P39 lang kasi yun tapos busog ka pa. At hindi naman din sha gaanong petite. Sa isang maliit na taong tulad ko, nakakabusog na din yun. Tapos, mas masarap ang palabok ng Red Ribbon kesa Jollibee. Mas kalunok-lunok sha. Haha. Tapos si Brix naman ay cake at spaghetti ang inorder, saka pineapple juice. Hindi din nakakain ng madami si Brix dahil si Yosh ay inubos yung pagkain ng Babi nya. Haha, si Yosh talaga, laging ubod ng lakas kumain, hindi naman tumataba. Hindi ko din alam kung bakit. Siguro ay dahil talagang malikot sha at mabilis ang metabolism nya. Saka ayaw nya kasi ng palabok na pagkain ko, eh kasi naman... Sa spaghetti ko sha pinaglihi kaya anong reklamo ko? Ü Nagugulat nga si Beau dahil marami na daw alam na salita si Yosh at marami na ding alam. Pati alam na ni Yosh na "mandatory" kelangan nyang sumakay sa "ho-sh" = horse daw, in short, carousel. Pagkatapos namin kumain, ayun! Naalala nya ulet ang horse at di na kami nakatakas. Sumakay kami ng carousel, sapilitan akong napasakay. Ahaha.

Pagkatapos namin kumain, ayun... Nag-ikot-ikot kami tapos kumain kami ng Ice Cream sa Frootmix. That was our second time eating from that place. Nung una, nakita ko bago kami umalis na "fat free" daw yung ice cream. Napaisip na ako kung ano ang ginagamit nilang klase ng sugar pero naglalakad na kami palayo kaya di ko na natanong, saka sabi ko sa sarili ko, masarap naman kaya baka hindi din harmful. Nung bumalik kami at nagkaron ako ng mas malaking time para magbasa-basa, to my disgust and disappointment, nanlaki yung mata ko nung nalaman kong may "aspartame" pala yung ice cream na yon at pinapakain ko pa kay Yosh. Kaya kinuha ko yung ice cream, at pagkatapos kunwari ng ilang subo nung nakalalasong ice cream na yon, tinapon ko na yon sa basurahan. Sabi ko nga kay Beau, hindi na ako babalik sa Frootmix. Mag de-Dairy Queen na lang ako kung sakali, choose the lesser evil ika nga.

Baket? Ang aspartame kasi ay isang klase ng artificial sugar na aksidenteng nadiskure ni James M. Schlatter habang gumagawa sha ng isang anti-ulcer drug nung 1965. Ang kaso ang aspartame, kapag nakain at na-ingest, ang outcome nyon ay aspartic acid, phenylalanine, methanol (isang klase ng alcohol - shempre, alcohol nga kaya yun pa lang masama na sa katawan), at ang mga iyon ay formalin, formic acid, at diketopiperazine. Hindi ko na iisa-isahin ang mga nakalalasong kemikal na nakukuha ng isang taong kumain o umiinom ng mga pagkain o inming may aspartame. Pero kung iisipin nyo na kumakain kayo ng alkohol (methanol) at formalin, malamang alam na ng kahit na sinong tao na masama ito.

So, hindi naman nagtampo si Yosh sa pagkuha ko ng ice cream dahil hindi ko naman inagaw yun sa kanya. Dahan-dahan ko lang kinuha tapos itunuon ko ang atensyon nya sa ibang bagay. Kaya yon... Ok na sha. Alam ni Beau na ang saya-saya ko nung gabi na yon. Not to mention na talagang hindi na mabilis uminit ang ulo ko o di kaya'y hindi agad ako nagagalit o sumisigaw di tulad ng dati. Nagpunta muna kami sa Sai Bachi para bumili ng "takoyaki" - ang paborito kong Japanese pancake at pang-ulam din galing sa SaveMore. Pagkatapos nun umuwi na kami.

Tamang-tama, wala akong pasok kinabukasana kaya umuwi kami sa bahay (sa apartment namin sa Muntinlupa) at doon natulog buong gabi. Napakasaya naming tatlo. Lalo na ako. Kasi nga parang natutuwa akong nagawa ko ang subuking makuha ulit ang loob ng anak ko. Dahil kahit kasi nung bata pa sha, talagang napaka-importante na maging matatag ang samahan at relationship naming mag-ina.

Shempre, sino pa bang magmamahalan kundi kami-kami ding mag-ina? Ü


(Thank you, Beau... For making that Sunday happy for us =*)

Casio - Please Stop Breaking Our Hearts!

SIRA ANG CAMERA KOOOO!!!





Mga walang-hiya kayong manufacturer ng camera! Bakit nyo ginawa samen to?!?!


Oo! Oo! Sila ang may kasalanan! Baket? Dahil nalaman ko na talagang pagkatapos ng 1-2 taon, kahit na anong camera yung bigla na lang nagkakaron ng linya linya yung screen tapos parang laging over-exposed yung kinuha kong picture. Ang camera kong tinutukoy ay Casio Exilim EX-Z700. Marami pa yung problema. Tulad na lang na yung unang ganung camera ng nanay ko, ang problema naman ay ang umuusli nyang zoom, ayun, kapag nagalaw mo sha, hindi na gagana. Hayyy. Para tuloy akong nawalan ng cellphone. Di ko tuloy ma-capture ang mga fleeting moments ng buhay ko.


NO. Hindi. Hindi yun dahil sa nabagsak ko sha. Dahil ingat na ingat ako sa camera ko, hindi ko iyon sisirain dahil mahal ang pagkakabili namin (este ni Beau) pala ng camera na yon! Nung una nga yata ay parang naghihinala pa shang may masama akong ginawa sa camera nya pero nalaman din nya na talagang yun ang sira at problema ng lahat ng Casio cameras na binebenta sa mercado. Iinglishin ko lang para sa mga hindi nakakaintindi ng tagalog ha.


What happened was that three or four weeks ago, Beau and I were at TGIFriday's eating our early dinner together. I couldn't remember what the occassion was but as I was taking some pictures of the food that we're eating, I noticed some very light horizontal streaks that is being included everytime I was taking pics. I have never noticed those streaks before nor I have seen, had, or reckon such before.

And then, on Nov 20, about a week after Beau and I dined at TGIF. When I was trying to use my camera to take pics for the b-day bash my teammates prepared for me, the pics that were taken were all over-exposed, had a bright white light on 80% of the picture and the streaks became more prominent!

Then the weekend right after that incident, I tried borrowing my mom's cam (the same model as I had) thinking that the problem my cam encountered was isolated. But lo and behold, little did I knew that my mom had the same problem a week before I did!

And guess what? To fix the problem, we would have to shell out about P10,000! Excuse me?!?! That amount of money is the same price as the cam itself! No way!!!

To sum it all up, Beau found out that majority, if not all, of Casio exilim cameras are doing the same problem. Either the zoom thing on it that expands and the cam stops working, or just like with my mom's cam and mine, the camera all of a sudden gets gaga and starts taking pictures with those bright white light and super streaks. Gosh. If you know anyone who works for Casio, please let me know him/her so that I could strangle him/her to gimme back my gawddamnmoney!!

Casio, oh, Casio. Stop producing cameras, stop breaking our hearts, and just revert back producing those un-sellable watches.

Hayyy...

Thank You sa Cake =)

Kahapon, nag team meeting/huddle kami. Unang huddle namin ito na si TL Chito lang ang kasama namin (wala na si Claire, huhuhu!). Anyhow, masaya naman ang huddle kasi light lang ang usapan. Ambilis nga ng huddle namin eh. Nag-discuss lang si Hanz tungkol sa stats and usual updates sa team. Tapos, yung huling page ng Powerpoint nya, binati nya ako ng "Happy Birthday!" Ü hehe. Natuwa naman ako kasi birthday ko kasi next week. Hindi ko na naman na naisip na may gagawin pa silang pakulo para sakin, yung akala kong greeting lang sa powerpoint na ginawa ni Hanz, yun pala may cake pa! Ü Sabi ni Patty (yung isa kong ka office-mate na malusog, yung maliit na cake lang ang kaya nilang ibigay dahil wala na silang money, deh shempre, kahit parang 'nagtampo' ang loob ko kasi maliit na cake lang. Hehe. Masaya pa din ako kasi matagal ko ng wini-wish na magkakain ako ng cake galing sa Tsokonut Batirol.

Tapos shempre debut huddle ni Chito samen, kaya yon, nagpakain pa sha (tamang-tama naman sa birthday ko!). Nag-share-share sa pambili ng Amber's pancit malabon at pichi-pichi yung mga ka-team-mates ko at si Chito, tapos yun, na-ignorante pa si Chito sa pichi-pichi. Para daw yung kunchinta, sumang-ayon naman ako.

Masarap naman ang merienda namin. Para ngang hindi sila kumain ng tanghalian eh. Haha. Naubos ang isang buong bilao.

Pics below:

Ang bagong TLC

(dito kumpleto kami - L-R: Patsy, Gel, DJ, MaDg, LJ Ü, Irene, Nicki, Chito; sa likod: Hanz)

ewan ko kung bakit ganyan ang ngiti ko. ahaha.

Sira ang digi-cam ko, huhu! Kaya wala mashadong piktyur. Anyhow, t'was a good day for me. Loved it Ü

Alright. So I've been having nightmares for quite some time now 'cause I was using this Korean facial wash and it seems that my face couldn't really match it no matter how much I try to convince myself.

Then two nights ago, I was at my mom's place visiting Yosh :) Being out for the whole day (beau and I went to the cemetery and visited his close kins, then we went to Festival Supermall for some malling and going around), I was led by my feet to the washroom to wash my face. And of course, being me who "tries" the facial washes available in my mom's house (Belo, Pond's, Clean & Clear, and just the usual Safeguard), I saw this L'Oreal Revitalift Facial Wash and really got curious into trying it out.



Soooo...



Voila! Here's how I look now.

OMG!! L'Oreal is L'Oreal. Ah. I knew it. I should have not wandered anywhere else. I have finally found the One for me. From lipsticks, to faint blushes, and now --- facial washes.

Who cares if I spend a little more dime than usual? It's my face anyway. I've got to invest on it.

Nice noh? :P

We Choose Our Fate...

In ym signature, I've always had a "motto" there that says:

"We choose our fate by the choices we make."

I got that quote from someone before.
But now, I have rather proved him wrong.
I now have realized that we do not choose our fate by the choices we make.
Rather, we choose our fate by the thoughts we make.

As Tyron Edwards said, "Thoughts lead on purposes; purpose go forth in action; actions form habits; habits decide character; and character fixes our destiny."



*Hayun. Share ko lang naman :P

When Someone Has Told You Something Very Deep and You Won't Know How to Respond

Beau and I have been having some frequent small talks regarding his leaving for abroad. I guess one of the things he has in mind was that I might go "astray" from what we have and what we have been planning ever since. Although that has sort of cut my heart as it seemed to me that it it seemed to him (in one way or the other) that would be easy for me to let go just because of temporary pleasures, I just put whatever assumptions I have in mind somewhere out there. I just think that he's just having some going-abroad-jitters, as I myself is not really certain on what's going to happen once he's away (who is anyway, right?). I mean, no one among us is certain what's going to happen tomorrow or the week or year after next, so... yeah... get my drift?

This morning, we had our usual chat online. And of course, as it is always "usual", I wasn't expecting something different is going to happen then.

Although one of the things I like about my beau is everytime he calls me "mahal". It's just music to my ears. And as much as I hate to admit it, I still get kilig and very anticipating of whatever he's going to say right after that.

And so again... out of nowhere... he called me "mahal". Then he spoke out these words...

beau: mahal

thank you

me: san?

beau: for being my partner

me: :)

bakit ka naman biglang napasabi nyan, baby? :)

beau: wla naman

naisip ko lang

it won't be possible for me to go abroad

if i haven't found a partner

that i can trust

not only with my money but with my heart :)

(sorry for the pasted ym convo... I don't know how to paste it some other way Ü) BTW, don't mind my answer right after that. ;)

What matters most here is that I have known right from him that he trusts me enough to leave me here. I hope he also knows that I trust him, not just enough, but maybe too much of a too much to let him go and be wherever he should be. Tulad nga ng sabi ko sa isa mga dati kong posts (just like I said on one of my previous posts), "I let him go... let him leave... as I know it's also me letting him live." So, maybe no one may be able to comprehend how deeply I feel regarding his leaving for abroad, but all I can say now is... I'll miss him so.

So many songs to sing, songs just to keep myself sane
Trying to keep our memories together aflame
When one like me who easily unconsciously forgets
Holds on dearly to many heartfelt remembrances unregret

Today was the day I was awarded as the CSP of the Month

Yes, that's right :) I was sooo damn happy that in about 9 months since I got here in She Sells Sea Shells, I have now been awarded as the CSP ofthe Month!!

So what? (Hahahahaha)

Oh well, aside form bragging rights, I must say that being one is also a good "way" of augmenting my income. Haha. Yep. Got about Php1.5k additional as a "reward" for being the CSP of the month. Hehe. No wonder Patty (my colleague) is happy being the CSP of the month.

I'm just so thankful that God answered my prayer. You see, I've been wondering how in the world will I be able to buy milk for Yosh tonight (well, aside from asking Beau to take care of it for the meantime, which I fully feel suckish in doing). Now, surprisingly (or almost surprisingly ~ coz I've got that gut feeling that I would win this time as Patty wasn't around ~ hahaha), I won and got an SM gift check for Php1.5k. Whew. I'm happy. Haha. That's all.

And I'm wishing mo' money money money (and giftcheques) to come. Ahaha.

Scribble Ribbles

Okay... So I've been quite busy with all the work that I've been doing in the office and that's why it was only now that I was able to post some "decent" post in my blog. Not just posts that are a "quick fix", posting movies, articles, or whatever because I (of course) like them and, at the same time, I really have no time to write my thoughts.

Dear Readers, how's your week so far?

Our week here in Manila starts on a Sunday. And so far, for quite a time being now, I think I've had no weekend - you know, the kind of a weekend that one still goes out doing errands or one still works so that she can earn extra money so pay the bills? So, just like I said, I've had no weekend as far as I could remember (yes, Baby, I know there's something running on your mind now).

You see, dear readers, I am not really accustomed to working through the weekends. For me the weekends is the time for me to stay home and watch tv and cook anything that I could think of and just literally lay my back. Weekend for me is a time to eat, sleep, and eat more. However, I guess because now that I have more payables and stuff, work has to be more and I'm afraid play has to be less - now that it's not only me that I do this for, but also my family.

I have realised that when one was a kid, he'd like to quickly grow up, and when he grew up, he'd wanted to live a carefree life like that when he was a child.

Funny isn't it?

But true.

But life has no rewind button, but one could fast forward it by not appreciating the present and just always looking forward for what the future would bring(have you watched Click starring Adam Sandler?). Sometimes, I had to admit, because I was too focused on what's gonna happen the next month, I miss out the little things that's happening around me.

Time for a change? Yes, it's always time for a change. Time flies so fast and I think no one really wants to fly with time.

Everybody wants to savor it.

This is for You, Little Sister...

You know what kind of news faced me when I got to my mom's house? (Remember I go there every night coz I had to see my son, feed him, and put him to bed and sleep beside him b'cause we don't have a nanny yet?)

Two very, very bad news.

One, my son, isn't at my mom's house.

It's because of, two... My sister, Tischa, has been mugged by a f*cking drug addict and took away her mobile phone.

Why did he have to mug her? Why need to mug? Why her?

She was just having fun jogging with her friend and was just taking a break at a sari-sari store. Then she saw him... Approached them while he was riding a motorcycle. He went off the motorcycle, then it all happened so fast. He was wearing a helmet, he was wearing a mask, she was scared, her friend was scared. He pulled a gun, demanded for her mobile phone, poked her tummy with the gun, and when she refused to give it to him, he hit her with his gun ---

on the head.

How can a person be so cruel and hit a 12 year old girl with a gun just because he so fcuking need a kick? Why don't he just fcuking hit himself with his gun instead himself instead? Anyway, he's just a fcuking piece of ugly furniture on this world and nobody needs him. Hey you! Spare those innocent people from experiencing a fcuked up life like you have. Here's a knife, here's a rope. Or, here are some bullets. Go ahead and kill yourself - nobody fcuking needs you.

Yes, I am angry. I am angry, very angry for what happened with my sister. Very angry on what that SOB did to her. She didn't deserve it. She deserved a good life.

Not this... Not a swollen head and an empty hand without her cell phone.

Tell you this, sister. He's eventually get what he deserves. Remember that. Always remember that. He will get what he deserves. There will be no one day that I shall pray that there will be no one day that he will slowly and painfully suffer. Thousand time more that you've had. And, heavens forbid, but if that fcuking SOB and I would meet, I shall give him what he's never experienced with the previous people he stolen things from.

Nobody is allowed to hurt you, Trisch. But you shall let go of this. You shall eventually soar above this.

But as for me...

I shall avenge for you, Trischa. I shall avenge for you.

I shall definitely avenge for you.





P.S. This is one of the specially rarest times I wish my Dad is still alive... Another rare time was when Yosh's dad turn out to be the weirdest species I've known and could have turned into monster. I wanted my Dad to had been there, crack his bones and beat the hell outta him.

I-boycott ang mga Bus at Jeepney Drivers na humihinto sa pasaherong 'di naman sila pinapara!

Naka-experience na ba kayo ng ganun?

Dapat i-boycott ang mga jeep na himihinto ng hindi naman pinapara. Pampasikip ng daan, sinasayang pa ang oras natin.

Dapat sabihan din ang mga tao, lalong-lalo na yung lalaki, na patayin ang yosi kapag nasa jeep or bus. Lalo na sa umaga. Ano ba, bagong paligo tapos amoy yosi? Shempre, konting pakiusap ng mapahiya naman.

Kaya nyo bang gawin to? Kasi ako ginagawa ko na, matagal na.

Kulang kasi minsan sa assertiveness tayong mga tao. Minsan meron ngang mga tao na titiisin ang usok ng yosi at ang paghinto ng matagal nga jeep para lang hindi makakuha ng atensyon galing sa ibang kasakay nya sa sasakyan. Pero kung tutuusin, nag-iinit na ang ulo nya dahil hindi nya gusto ang nangyayari. Tapos pagdating nya halimbawa sa opisina o kapag nagkita na sila ng bf/gf nya, saka sha maghihinanaing. Unfair, di ba?

So, konting assertiveness mga kachokaran, kaibigan, mambabasa ng blog ko. Minsan, sa simpleng paghingi makukuha natin ang nais natin.

I have no title for this

Well, just would like to share these to all, 'ya...


Not a good experience to start my week, so might as well share this one and let it go.

You know, this particular person - he's just... I think he's such a pain in the a$s for his family. Trying to hide what is obviously there and I don't think he's got an idea who he is and who he should really be. Confused on how he feels and how he think his family thinks towards him. I guess he's so frustrated with his life and nothing is going on good that's why he's venting it out on somebody else.

I pity him.

At the same time, he's now starting to get into my nerves. You see, I called up and asked this morning if I could talk to his brother because it was sorta late and he had to get up and all that species said was that his brother has left already. You know, the way like he was sounding uncertain of what's he's gonna answer but just answered, "Oh, he's not here anymore..." - yeah, right. As in sobrang nagpigil na lang ako na tawagin shang "tonto" dahil he's really acting like one. I just said that I'll just try to call my boyfriend through his mobile phone, which is not turned on.

So, I just called back, good thing it was my boyfriend who answered the phone. Anyway, that little instance pissed me off. I have always been trying to keep myself from disrespecting any person from my bf's family. It's more of like I'm trying to pay respect to my bf and his dad. But I think I've had enough of that species's nimcompoopness. It's time to retaliate when I have to. That SOB needs to know that if he's trying to piss someone off, he's have to piss on himself first.

Daym!

Naiwan ko yung isang blog ko kahapon...

Opo mga kaibigan, totoo nga. Hindi ako nakapag-blog kahapon. Well, meron kasi akong ginagawa kahapon na blog, yun yung franchise franchise. Eh parang hindi nakikisama ang daliri ko ambagal mag-type. Anyhoo, naipost ko naman ngayon, kaya ok lang. I'm still keeping my count. Ano ba ang nasa isip ko? Trabaho? Yung kakainin ko mamayang gabi? Yung gagawin ko next week? Yung plano ko next year? Hahahaha. Nakakabaliw kung minsan. Pero napaka-enjoy mabuhay.
Alam mo ba na sa ngayon, parang tulugan lang ang bahay ko dahil ang baby ko nasa mommy ko at ako lang at si Brix ang natutulog (ala daw akong kasama) tapos tinutulugan ko pa sha. Ganun pala kapag nagsasarili, lahat talaga sarili mo. Tubig, ilaw, gamit, pagkain. Shempre pati bahay sayo. At ang kagandahan ngayong nagsasarili na ako? Parang talagang nararamdaman ko na lahat ng ipinapagod ko dito sa opisina worth it talaga. Na nakikita ko bawat pinaghihirapan ko, eh yung kama, yung kabinet, yung sandok, baso, plato, unan, electric fan, kurtina, basahan, sabon, shampoo, etc. Galing di ba? Well, shempre si Brix ang laki laki ng naitulong para mabuo at magmukhang bahay yung apartment namin. Ang kelangan ko na lang gawin ngayon ay maglinis. Abah, halos 1 week ko ng di nama-mop ang bahay namin. Sabihin ko ng hindi naman ako nagpapasok ng sapatos at chinelas pero para sakin nga dapat once a day nagmo mop ako eh. Eh kaya lang pagod na sa trabaho, sa ngayon full time mom at full time worker ako. Grabeh ang demands, pero ok naman at this is something that makes me feel fulfilled and happy. Kaya rin naman ako full time sa mommyness and professional life ko ay umalis yung yaya ng anak ko. Pero meron na naman padating, galing ng Zamboanga, sa Mindanao pala yun. Hehe. Pamamasahihan ko na lang then ibabawas ko sa sweldo nya. Pero shempre, if she's kind to us and all, baka i-waive na namin yung fee nya. Now, for the meantime yung baby ko na si Yosh sa bahay muna ng mommy ko then iuuwi ko na lang ulet when there's a yaya na. Meron na dapat shang yaya actually, kaya lang ang labong kausap. Sabi sakin Sunday last week pa sha darating, then I heard that she had to go somewhere at hindi man lang ako aabisuhan! Shempre di ba kaka-alis naman ng respeto yun, nag-usap na kami ng matino then hindi sha tutupad sa usapan. Anuba naman yun...

Anyhow, nasolusyonan na naman yun. Para sakin ngayon I just have to wait for the new yaya for Yoshua.

Now, if there is one thing na naiisip ko at dapat kong i-commit sa sarili ko, yun yung NEVER EVER na akong male-late sa pagpasok ng opisina. There are a lot in store for me. I think mas makabubuting maging maaga na lang ako na maagang maaga kesa matulog ako ng extra 30 mins pero male-late naman.

Yung pumpings? Well, nag gym ako kagabi so I think exempted yun. Hehe.
Pero mamaya gagawin ko yun.
Abangan bukas.

=D

24 Hours Not That Much

Okay. This post won't be so long coz I need to run from here and I need to see my son.

You see, my son now is at my mother's house because I am looking for a nanny for him. And I have to haste because I'm more than excited to see him. I'm kinda feeling low in a way because I don't get to sleep beside him since 2 nights ago.

You know that feeling when you suddenly realise that kids grow up so fast and sometimes you want to hold time back and tell the whole world that you'd like to spend just one more day with the child that you once had inside you?

TGIF!

For the first time in my entire life I am now SOOOOOOOOO thankful that it's Friday.

Man, this week was such a whirlwind week. From Monday (31 Mar 08) this week, I was the only one who takes care of the house and my son at home after I go to work. But of course, there were some people who helped me go through this week like Brix (my boyfriend) and Ate Lisa (my landlady). But the bulk of work were on my shoulders. From cooking, cleaning the utensils we used for eating and cooking, sweeping and mopping the whole house, trying to remove the irritating dust on the whole house, to cleaning the bathroom, washing the clothes, drying the clothes, and last but most of all, taking care of my son, Yosh. Most of these I try to cramp for the few hours that was left after I come from work, which was about 1 1/2 hours away if it's the usual traffic.

Just imagine that everyday I had to wake up at about 4am just to run to work. Every single day.

So now, at least for this weekend, because I don't have any teaching schedule I'll be able to lay my back a little and take things a little slower than I usually do.

I'm a Certified Time Beater

Do you have that compulsion wherein you really can't help yourself sometimes but to wake up really late? And when you're in the vehicle going some place like work, office, or school and it's traffic, you get irked either with the bus driver, the traffic light, the car cutting you off, or with anything else except yourself? XD

If your answer is yes.
Then we've got the same compulsion (if that's how I could define it).

Just like I said in my previous post, my shift starts at 5:30am, and fortunately, the latest time I've been in the office was 5:29am, which was today. But before I've reached my office, I was able to ask a taxi driver to beat the traffic light, breezed through 2 security guards, run so fast that it felt like my lungs were left behind while I couldn't breathe, and my body's temperature rose that I really felt hot while the air conditioner was on me.

Ever been it that time beating sit? Haha. You bet. I've been in this kind of lifestyle (well, I also hope I get outta this too, daym!) ever since I was in elementary (that was more than 10 years ago I'm telling you).

*Singing the song "It's a hard habit to break~~~"*

Our New Home

We've just moved into our new home (pictures be included later on). It's a very tiny home but for less than a month, we've been able to complete the things that we need like the gas stove, bed, kitchen and dining utensils, food, clothes cabinet, and toilet stuff.

The village that we moved in was very neat. There is a basketball court, a school, a park. It's secured (there's a security guard in front of the village and they make sure that if there's no village sticker, they get the liscense of the driver). And I've got an easy access to the main road where the buses are going to and fro. The village is also near the church, the mall, and it's a one 30-min bus ride going to Makati.

It wasn't such a big adjustment on my part. It felt that when I moved out of the house of the people that I somehow depended on, it felt normal to be in a struggle for a bit but at the same time doing things by my own. Getting my clothes washed, cooking my own food, and cleaning my own house. From the first Saturday that I moved in, I've always felt like I'm a superwoman and I can do all things. I work from 5:30am-2:30pm then I sleep at about 10pm because I still had to do all the housework.

In short, if one has a family, it's really best to move out and be in the "real world" on your own. Because, for me, I was only able to "really" learn things on my own when I have been let go of.